Give your kids a hug and tell them you love them….

I wish I could say that my growing up was with the picture perfect family. By no means did I have a bad life. But I lacked a lot of the small things that maybe some people who did get them to for granted. My mom was always the one who made the rules. Was extremely hard on me, etc, etc , etc. My dad on the other hand was the one that was nurturing, helpful and loving. Now a little background on my mom is that she was raised in an orphanage. My grandparents died in an auto accident very early in her life. This left my mom and her sister with no family to live with. So I hear many stories about how they shaved their heads so they would not get lice. They ate once a day. And the food was horrible. They never felt any love from the staff. And that it was the worst living situation for a child. My dad on the other hand grew up the second oldest of 4. And had both of his parents. He came to Canada from Hungary with my grandparents early in his life. My grandparents worked hard to put three square meals on the table for all the kids. My grandmother was very loving. My grandfather was the enforcer. So both had very different lives. Which is maybe what contributed to my experiences and the roles I said they played in my growing up? I grew up in Sothern California. In the Valley. And yes I said my fair share of "totally’s" and "gag me with a spoon". I have a sister who is 16 years older than me. So by the time I was 2 she was out of the house. So it was kind of like I did not have a sister. To this day we are not very close (sad to say and again something I wish was reflective of the “Perfect Family”). Now my mom was not the lovey dovey type. I can’t really think of any time where she wanted to cuddle with me as a child. Where she reached out to hug me. Or gave me a hug and kiss before she made me walk to school. I also don’t remember her saying I love you very much either. Now don’t get me wrong, she gave me a hug and said I love you once in awhile. But not like you should to a child. So now as an adult I occasionally long for a warm embrace or just flat out attention. From my husband or kids (my littlest one “Tai” is always up for cuddle time from Mommy). I also occasionally get really weird about making sure I am telling everyone I Love them. And hearing it back from them is very important. My dad was also not lovey dovey. But I think we expect it more from a mom then a dad. Although the relationship I see my husband and 9 year old daughter is still unlike mine was. My mom is getting older (low 70’s) and she has been through some major health scares in the past couple years. Including a triple bypass. I thought after that close call with the white light two years ago that she would maybe realize that she should never take a moment for granted with her children. But it has not changed a thing. She has remained the same person who shy’s from hugs. Does not say I Love You. But say’s “I love you too”. If you say it first. I think the thing I need to remember is that even though I may not have had a lot of hugs and I love you’s when I was young, does not mean I can’t stop the cycle. I vow to hug and kiss and tell my children and husband I love them. Because even though my kids might say in the future I wish I had the “Perfect Family”, it won’t be because I did not hug and kiss and tell them I loved them more.

Disappointment...

I know for a fact I am not the only one that was hit this weekend with any type of disappointment. But I am sure that I don't handle it as well as others also. Without going into to many details...I had numerous things I was looking forward to this weekend. And by Sunday morning when I was waiting for the last thing to at least come through, I was once again let down. I love my husband, but I wish sometimes he would humor me instead of making me feel like I am overeating. I am sure to some maybe I was. But to me I was sad. I get really down when things don't work in my favor. I sulk a little and then I can come back from it and move on pretty fast. But the reminder or lingering feelings can make everything come back the next day. Usually then I get over it even faster. But me even bringing it up on the blog means I was thinking about it again. So I want to close the chapter of disappointment that happened on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. And move on. Cause lets face it...the next day is a new day.

The re-begining of my blogging days.

So once again I am going to try my hand at the blogging world. This adventure has never been successful for me. For a couple of reasons.... 1. I am so busy. 2. I sometimes don't know what to write. And the most important one ties in with the 1st reason. 3. I forget. But lately I have been doing some research on Blog and have come to find that people use it for so many reasons. Reasons that I think would work for me. Like sharing with people some of the crazy things my kids say and do. Venting about things that I might otherwise keep inside. This is never good. So join me on this adventure of....Life with my little peanuts!!

Flip off Fridays....

Ok so lets just jump into my flip off fridays.

1. Flip of being a work from home mom!
For any of you moms that dream of the day when you can stay at home with the kids and make cookies and breads from scratch, have all the laundry done and the house spotless. Think again. I am and have been a stay at home mom for about 6 years (almost straight) and I also run my work from home business. This basically means that I have no time for myself. Maybe get a load of laundry done a day for over four people (this is not a good thing). Clean up only to have my 1 1/2 year old run around behind me making a bigger mess. So it looks like I never cleaned. Try to cook at home (only if this means I can throw everything in the crock pot). All on about 6 hours sleep if I am lucky. Now earlier I said I work from home. How is it that I get any WORK done? I have no idea. I really need a vacation and a raise. I need to talk to the boss...oh that's right I am the Boss!!!

2. Taxes
I mean need I say more. Long are the days of getting money back.

3. People who suck..
I never can understand how people who are lazy, refuse to work, sit around all day, complain, etc. Things always work out in there favor. I mean really.

Ok enough complaining. Have a great day!!!!

It's that time again.....Flip off Friday!

So I used to every Friday post my flip off for the weeks. And since I just started blogging again I thought what a better time to start my Flip off Friday's.

So my first flip of goes to
Diets...
My New Years resolution was to start to pay more attention to the crap I ate. Thus meaning bring on the salads. This was going really well. Then all it take is one slip up and you are on a downward spiral to eating crap. Thus I give you a big flip off.

My neighbor who does not know how to drive or speak English...
This old man next door has no idea how to drive and most defiantly does not know how to park. He has hit and broken my white picket fence more then ten times. And I don't understand how he manages this since he drives like 2 miles an hour (not 5 but 2 miles an hour). And there is no point saying anything because he speaks Arabic, Hindu or something like that and no English. So when you say something to him he just nods his head. I could be calling him a ****er and he would nod his head yes. Hey maybe I should try that sometime. :)

Anyone have a flip off they would like to share...

Long Time Coming....

So it has been a hot minute since I posted on this blog. My intentions when I started this was to have the ability to talk, vent and connect with friends, family and strangers (those deciding to read that maybe don't know me that well)or even to myself if no one is reading.
What happened is that this blog got pushed under the rug with all the other things I had going on in my life and then completely forgot about it.
With the new year and me turning another year older, I figured I better get my $h*t together and find ways to blog more often. I mean the last time I blogged was almost 9 mths ago...what the hell!
So much has happened since I last posted.
My mom had a heart attack in May 2011 which was life altering in so many ways. My life for about three weeks consisted of living in a hospital. While juggling my life, kids, house and business. The hospital was almost two hours away in traffic (1 hour without) and my sister and I just should have paid for a hotel instead of driving back and forth. It might have been cheaper then the gas. Fast forward to now and she is doing much better. She is back to her old self, which for anyone that knows her is a piece of work. Love you Mom! She still has some health issue but over all is doing much better.
July 2011 was my little mans 1st birthday. Which really went by way to fast. It's funny how you will say "OMG this week is going by so slow". But then you look back and say "OMG where did that year go". It went by so fast. He is such an amazing child. I could not be any more lucky then I am to have a child with his disposition. He is so relaxed, carefree, funny and so cute. I mean I have heard him cry maybe 5 times in his whole 18mth life. Everyday people in my life remind me of how lucky I am to have a baby like him.
September 2011 my Daughter started the 2nd grade and my son started his senior year. Another one of those OMG where did the time go. They both are also amazing kids. My daughter is feisty like me and really know how to get under my skin sometime. My son Jesse is a senior and he has really started to realize that after this year all the fun and games are over and it is time to head to the real world. Work, College, both...whatever path he picks I want to just support him.
October, November and December all went by in a blur. (except that my son Jesse turned 18 years old)!!
Now January 2012..... A week ago I turned the big 35!!! I am not one to sulk about the number. I really am just happy that I lived another year.
Now in between all of this I have been holding down the fort at home, running all of my businesses and being a wife.
Well I have caught everyone up to speed on my crazy life. My New Years resolution is to write in this blog at least three times a week.

I'M BACK!

As I sit here on this gloomy day I am draw to..
Watch a Glee marathon (ok I did watch a episode)
Work (since everyone that knows me know I am a workaholic)
Join my husband and baby on the couch for a snooze
Write in my neglected blog. DING DING DING WINNER!

Oh how I have missed you blog. I have received a couple request to go back to doing my flip off Fridays. Boy do I have some built up flip off's :)

I find it so hard to make time to write a blog post due to my busy life. I mean I know people always say they are busy, but really I am super busy. I wish I was like some who are able to devote daily time to write a blog post.

I battle with myself to just stay focused on doing one thing at a time, but my mind just bounces around everywhere. I currently have more then a handful of business ideas that could be good ideas, bad ideas and maybe even million dollar ideas (Daniel you know what I am talking about). But because I lack the lottery jackpot they sit on a shelf in my brain waiting for my numbers to be called. Is that not funny that I need to win millions to make millions. Sometimes that shelf in my brain gets so full I can't sleep. Sometimes I will be working and something will trigger a thought about those ideas that I get very sidetracked on whatever I am doing(this is a big weakness for me).

I guess what I am saying is I hope
all the sore fingers from typing pay off
nights I have not slept and sent emails all night (I will sleep when I am dead)
said shh let mommy take this call real quick to my kids
Pays off in the long run.

Because even millions can't make up for some things!

Welcome to my world!